Bakasyon Na Ba?

Halos isang linggo na kong walang pasok. Kasi ba naman wala talaga kong pasok pag Tuesdays at Fridays tapos di pa ko pumasok nung Lunes, tapos binabagyo kami dito sa Maynila kaya ayun, kanselado ang mga klase. Hindi ko alam kung magsasaya ba ako sa dahil sa totoo lang, wala akong magawa. Gusto ko sanang manood ng Ratatouille pero wala naman akong makasama. Ang lungkot kaya nun! Manonood ka ng isang masayang pelikula tapos mag-isa kang tatawa. Siguro matutulog na lang ulit ako buong maghapon. Hindi rin pala masayang walang pasok lalo na kung wala kang mayayang lumabas.

Busy lahat ng tao o kaya naman walang pera. Hindi ko naman maivolunteer na ililibre ko sila kasi masama sa loob kong manlibre ngayon (with exception to a few people). Kahit anong pilit kong isama sila sa Ratatouille, di rin sila sasama, madidisappoint lang ko. Hindi ko na lang sila yayayain.

Dahil bumabagyo na, gusto kong bumili ng isang magandang trench coat. Yung magandang ipamporma pero hindi kasing haba ng mga coat nila sa Matrix. Masyadong mainit sa Pilipinas para sa ganung kasuotan. Meron akong konting ipon para dito ang problema na lang, wala akong makitang bibilhin.

Medyo sawa na rin ako sa mga games ng laptop ko. Buong araw ko ba namang nilaro lahat ng yun kahapon. Kaya ngayon, bagot na bagot na ko. Siguro dapat sa Lunes, excited na ulit akong pumasok.

Sana may Harry Potter book 7 o kahit anong libro ako para kahit di ako lumabas okay lang. Wala na ring gana ang mga palabas sa TV. Hindi nila napupukaw ang interes ko. Boring, dull, whatever. Wala rin namang makatext ng maayos dahil ang mga taong nanaisin mong magreply hindi mo alam kung tulog pa o ayaw lang talaga magtext.

Para bang lahat ng tao ngayon tamad na tamad. Oo, tama, hindi na lang ako magyayaya para hindi rin ako ma disappoint.

Tulog. Tulog na naman? Kagigising ko lang a. Sabagay, wala namang ibang magawa kaya sige, matutulog na lang ulit ako.

Bitch

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

Chorus:
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Wrath

What I feel for you right now is pure wrath. I don't want to talk to you nor have you on my mind. You have the nerve to judge someone as unmanly when you yourself cannot stand up for what you did! You even thought I'd want to ruin you. With all due respect, why the hell would I want to ruin you? But now that you've given me the idea, I might consider it now.

When I say I do not want to talk to you, do not insist on contacting me or talking to me for I DO NOT want to hear anything from you. You ruined my trust to the core. I told you I didn't want to be emotionally attached to someone for the fear of too much emotional vulnerability yet you led me on. And there I was, so stupid to see that you, like any other typical man (or should I say boy) was using a "respectable" facade to cover up for the mess you do.

All I wanted was for you to accept that YES that happened but that is over now. You are so scared of what might happen to you. You are so concerned of saving you oh so divine face that you cannot accept that you did make a mistake. That's the difference between us. I accepted the risks and admitted that what happened was a mistake. To top that off I now realize that YOU were a huge mistake.

I am very easy to get along with and as equally easy to piss off. When I say I hate you out of the context that I am joking, I really do hate you.

Wrath - one of the seven deadly sins. I'm sinning right now, I'll ask for forgiveness later.