Before 20

"Jelai has a birthday, we're so glad.

Let us see how many she has had.

As we count the candles we are told:

one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten,

eleven,twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen!

Jelai is nineteen years old."

It's my last year as a teen-ager and for the first time I felt the want to stop time so that I will not grow older. What bothers me is not the fact that I have turned nineteen but the matter that in a years time, I will no longer be a teen-ager. It somehow overwhelms me with the feeling of much more added responsibilities and the force to mature - to "act my age".

While other people are thinking about going to graduate school, not getting a job right after graduation, I somehow feel the need to get a job as soon (or in at most three months) after I graduate. I feel the need to earn and save just to satisfy my needs (and some wants) without being a burden to my parents anymore. Guilt strikes me whenever my mom complains that we don't have enough money for this and that. I feel as if I need to earn just so she can take me off the Expenses List.

Ah money! If only I have to think only about myself, that would indeed be easier.

Six people have already greeted at the stroke of 12 today. I'm expecting more greetings tomorrow.

To everyone else who haven't sent their greetings yet, you can convert every message to hundred peso bills, that would really be of help. :D But since most of us are on vacation mode, I know we can barely scratch a peso from our pockets. With this matter at hand, I half-heartedly thank you for your greetings.

Kidding (or not).. :D

Anyway, Spiderman 3's first showing date is today. To everyone planning to watch it on IMAX, don't even think it's possible if you haven't had your reservations yet. It's booked til the sixth. So if you want to catch it on the first showing date, better settle with a regular cinema. Too bad, I'm in the province. Can't watch it on the first showing date, on the first showing time and be a everybody else's spoiler. That takes the fun away.

My hair's straight, I'm getting fat, I don't have a summer love (not that I'm looking for one but I want to get even with Alex's summer love last year *evil grin*), what's to entertain me this vacation?

Ah! I'm ranting too much nonsense! Probably caused by the lack of sleep I have incurred this past week I spent in Manila.

Got to have my beauty rest for later's celebration (if ever there's gonna be one).

Nighty night.. Happy birthday to me!