Tiring

My head hurts, my chest feels worse.

Why do we have to quarrel every single time we get in touch? Why do you always have to use that tone of voice on me when we speak, which leads me to interpret your SMS as having the same tone. How can you expect me to warm up to you when I have to raise my defenses just so I won't be blamed (again)? Yeah, maybe I am too sensitive, too bratty, too whatever. I don't know. I seem to not understand your lingo anymore and it seems you cannot decipher mine either. Or maybe, just maybe, over the past three years we've changed a lot without even noticing it.

Stop being blind and see the fact that I am not the only one to blame for every outburst I have. Check how you speak, be conscious of the words you use, see what non verbal cues you produce. You must know by now what stuff lead me react negatively.

Do not expect me to apologize right away. I am a very proud person and accepting that I am wrong takes time, lots of it. If you get tired of waiting, don't force me to say it lest you be met with an insencere one and you know what happens next.

We've been together for almost three years now. I have changed and so have you. I don't know what the point of this last paragraph is. So there.