Breaking Down

I haven't had a peaceful sleep last night. I was so bothered about what I learned yesterday and the other issues surrounding it (i.e. Alex's messages to Robert and his girlfriend). I find myself uneasy and irritable during the day. My attention span is almost null. I barely managed to pass my seat work. I couldn't solve the Math problems that were given. My head hurts, my eyes are sore with lack of sleep. I put on "tons" of concealer under my eyes just to cover the bulging bags yet that even proved ineffective. No matter how "blooming" I seemed you'd still see how jittery and anxious I was.

I thought things were going to be okay. I was okay. I wasn't even thinking about what happened then all of a sudden this will happen? Spare me from more heartaches, I beg you. I can barely take any more.

I really wish the people I talk to would keep me sane but some even make things worse. I can't handle any more quarrels right now, please bear with me. Do not use a high tone of voice whenever you being irritated with me. You don't know how much close I am to snapping. Nobody understands what I am going through right now. I hope you would. Don't force me to think rationally because at this moment, I can't. I am simply overwhelmed with the recent revelations.

God! People take me for granted.