I'm Better

The past months (May-June) can be labelled as one of the most trying times of my life. "Confused" was a word I used to describe my then current state of being. I couldn't understand myself, I was depressed more often than not, I dragged people down with me to wallow in the loneliness I alone feel.

But now I can strongly say "I'm okay". I am back (hopefully) to the focused being I was before all of these madness started. I just had to take a whiff of Manila's polluted air and I became alright.

To all the people I've hurt during my two months of a so called "self discovery" (a term I find completely untrue for I have not yet fully "found" what I was looking for) I beg your forgiveness. I was insane, well part of me was.

Anyway.. enough drama.

I'm going to have my grad pic photo shoot a few weeks from now. I'm jittery with excitement! I want to graduate badly but I still have to stay a year more since I shifted too late. Well at least I'm going to graduate with my course of choice.

NOTE: Never get into a course your parents tell you to get unless you want it.

I'm here in Mindoro to supposedly attend the hospital's weekend excursion. But I have my period and its raining hard so I have all the excuses to stay home and type this blog entry instead. :D

I just heard that my ex boyfriend was getting married next year. Good for him. It's about time too. I'll be walking down the aisle in a few year's time. Just have to get financially (emotionally, mentally) ready for that big day.

Why does marriage sound so final to me that it scares me?

It is really cold. It hasn't stopped raining since I got here. It makes me want to dive under thick sheets of blanket and sleep the night and day away.. :D