Little Miracles

An old woman was brought to our hospital yesterday and was confined (I do not know the reason for hospitalization though). The woman was very weak and seemed to be close to dying. Sure enough, at 12.30 pm today the old lady was pronounced dead. The doctors did resuscitation for approximately five minutes but then had to concede to the fact that the woman was dead. The woman stopped breathing, there was no heart rate and no blood pressure. Just to reiterate, the lady was dead.

At 1.45 pm a student nurse aide calmly told the head nurse "Ma'am, gumalaw po si lola." The head nurse, thinking that the movement was because the body was starting to rigor brushed the idea off and explained to the student nurse aide what might have happened. Some minutes later, another student told her that the patient who was pronounced dead earlier was breathing. Out of curiosity, the head nurse went to the patient's room to see for herself what the fuss was all about. And lo, the patient was indeed breathing! She checked the patient's heart and respiratory rate and found out that it was almost normal. The old lady's blood pressure was still zero though and she is presently in a coma. However, the point is after more than an hour she suddenly started breathing again!

The doctors and staff were baffled. Even the relatives are puzzled over what just happened and know not whether to be joyful or scared of the whole incident.

The explanation for a phenomena like this will never be answered fully by any medical practitioner. Maybe it is one of those little miracles God throws on our path just so we may remember how powerful he really is.

I'm With You

If ever you were able to watch Happy Feet, then you would be familiar with the term "heart song". The little penguins were asked to sing their heart songs at the start of classes. These songs somehow best describe who they are and can be used as a basis for getting to know each other meetings and stuff like that.

Have you ever felt so alone, so empty? I have felt that frequently in the past and less frequently this days. But whenever there's this nagging feeling of loneliness, I can't easily brush it off. I feel light headed, my heart beats at irregular intervals, even my breathing is affected. It's as if everything is so superficial, so cold, so lonely. It's as if I have no one to turn to and those you expect will understand you suddenly leaves you.. all by yourself.

This song never fails to describe how I feel during these times of emptiness.

I'm With You Lyrics
Avril Lavigne


I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

(Mmm..)

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

Oh!

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind

Yeahe yeahe yeah!..yeahe yeah, yeahe yeah, yeah yeah, YYYEEEAAAHHH!!...

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I!

I'm with you!
I'm with you!

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I!

I'm with you!
I'm with you!

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I

I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you

How Santa Feels

Imagine saving money, a lot of money, for two semesters and then spending it in less than a week's time to buy presents. Imagine how it feels to have saved so much and spend nothing for yourself. Imagine what it feels to receive a gift every Christmas and then suddenly, one Christmas, nothing. Just imagine.

When I think really hard about how much I spent on presents alone and haven't bought any for myself or for Alex, a sudden rush of disappointment envelopes me. To top that off, I haven't seen a gift with my name on it under the tree! For a kid who's used to receiving gifts every Christmas, it feels awful.

But, let us look back to the time when I was shopping for presents. I really didn't have time to think about myself. All I thought of was "I think (insert name here) will be happy with this" and impulsively bought that/those gift(s). I spent sleepless nights (I'm a nocturnal person) wrapping gifts with an increasing feeling of excitement after each present was wrapped. Eaach day, I would bug my mom to open the gift I have for her (of course she said wait). I was more excited than those who will receive my gifts! Just the thought of how they will react after seeing what I got them for Christmas really makes me jittery. By and by it really didn't matter whether I'll receive any this season, heck I'm not even excited of getting any!

I guess that's one of the essentials of this season. It is when one has to learn what "selflessness" really means and feels. It is when one discovers the joy of giving and seeing others happy with what you gave them.

This Christmas, I am playing Santa Claus. I guess it comes with growing up. After all, I already had my share of gifts for the past seventeen years. Now it's my turn to make the little ones' holliday special.

The joy of Christmas gifts are for kids, the joy of giving Christmas gifts are for older folks.

A Little Something To Make You Smile

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you
would have produced enough sound energy to heat one
cup of coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months,
enough gas is produced to create the energy of an
atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps
out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head
before it starves to death. (Creepy.)
(I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an
hour.
(Do not try this at home...... maybe at work.)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.

("Honey, I'm home. What the....?!")

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
(30 minutes... lucky pig... can you imagine??)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality
over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
(Hmmmmmm........)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years
longer than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.
(OK, so that would be a good thing....)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
(I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains.
(I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer.)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)

I was sorting through my Yahoo! Mail yesterday and found this e-mail that I found rather funny. I might be posting old mail from my inbox every now and then.

By the way, these trivia are factual.

My Top Ten Christmas Wishlist

This list may seem selfish and oh so cruel to those whose minds are for the welfare of all mankind. I apologize if it may seem that way but I won't be a hypocrite and put here stuff that I really don't want. Why wish for something you don't like anyway?

Don't get me wrong. I still want world peace and stuff like that.

Here goes:

10: A Mac notebook
My laptops still working, yeah. But for business and aesthetic purposes I need a computer with more memory and speed. I also need a computer that I can bring wherever I want. At the same time my Gateway is sort of dilapidated so I want a new notebook that is better in terms of specs and looks.

9: A Sony Ericson K800i
I'm a camwhore. Excuse me for the term. An SE K800i is the phone for me because it functions as a phone and as a megapixel camera at the same time. So far, K800i is the best camera phone there is that is not too flashy in terms of looks (unlike the Nokia N Series), not too bulky, and can still function well as a regular phone. However, if you could offer me a phone with a built in force field and stun gun, I'd gladly pay for it. =D

8. A new wardrobe
I'm kinda tired of wearing the same old clothes each day to school. Yeah I have a lot of clothes but I don't wear all of them. I'll have to sort them out and dispose (a.k.a. give away or sell) those that I don't and will never wear. All I want are new styles of shirts and jeans and I'll be fine with that.

7. All expense paid trip to Hongkong Disneyland for five
Going to HK Disneyland won't be fun if you're all alone. Besides I've never been out of the country moreso I've never been to Disneyland. I want my first trip there to be uber fun and with my family and/or friends with me.

6. Calvin and Hobbes Seven Comic Book Collection
I LOVE Calvin and Hobbes. The whole collection costs around 3000 pesos and I can't afford it. So if you can please give it to me for Christmas, you'd make me happy. By the way, the comic book is available at Powerbooks. I'll be waiting. *sweet smile*

The next five things are what I need more.

5. A new umbrella
My umbrella's ancient! I've had it ever since I was in first year college. And because it's so ancient, two of it's eight wire that serves as support are wrecked. I still use it though because I can't force myself to buy a hundred and fifty umbrella from Watson's. I have to have something that's tougher than my old umbrella. NOTE: The umbrella should be BLUE.

4. Two bottles of Suave Hair Mousse
I had my hair permed and repermed and repermed and now the curls are not that visible because I've emptied my mousse bottle two weeks ago. I didn't buy a new bottle because I bought hair gel instead which was a lot cheaper BUT makes my hair as hard as metal wires. :(

3. Two yellow and orange Stabilo Boss Highlighters
I'm an OC when it comes to highlighting reading materials. Before school ended for Christmas, my highlighters were coloring pale yellow and very pale orange a grave sign that they are about to retire. I'll be needing new ones for next year. I need two so that the other pair will serve as reserve highlighters.

2. MONEY
I spent more than 5k on Christmas shopping this year. Huhuhuhu.. All my sem's savings.. Gone! And I haven't even bought anything for myself or for mom or for Alex. Too bad. The gifts were for the kids I know. I need to earn this Christmas through selling MP4s and stuff like that OR you could make my life easier and give me 5K in cold hard cash instead. *evil grin*

1. A daily devotional book
I need something to nourish me spiritually every day. If you can give me something other than The Daily Bread, something more insightful, something more.. I'd be so blessed. I have to do my QTs more regularly and a new devotional book is just what I need to fuel me.

To those who will grant my wishes, I thank you in advance. To those who won't, you'll have to double your gifts next year.

In A Week's Time

In a week's time the 25th of December, also known as the Christmas day will be arriving. People from almost all over the world will be celebrating or at the very least commemorating what this day stands for. But do they know what Christmas really signifies?

Within the last three weeks storm after storm has hit the Philippines. The last week of November brought with it supertyphoon Reming, which brought havoc to the Bicol area and other localities near Bicol. Before the first week of December was finished, typhoon Seniang hit the country terrorizing those in the Southern Tagalog region. On the third week of December the Philippines is once again drinking in the effects of now ongoing typhoon Tomas. Next week will be Christmas after that, what's next?

"Signs of the times are everywhere
There's a brand new feeling in the air."

First an outburst of wars we felt. Nation against nation, nation against itself. Then there were outbreaks of various diseases and at the same time an outbreak of numerous drugs to cure or at the very least suppress these diseases and make it seem like it's gone. This year we have felt five storms, where three of which came in a matter of days after the other. Is the end really about to come?

Sadly I am one of those Christians who are not well versed thus I could not give you the exact verses where the signs of the soon return are indicated. Despite that I truly believe that all these things that are happening right now and for the past years are designed to wake us up to the reality that we must be prepared for the return of Christ and for our final judgement.

No, I am not going to share with you the ever so cliched Christmas story. I'm pretty sure you know it. I am not also scaring you to the point that you'd end up having fellowship with a religious group you barely know and have faith in, in fear that you will not be saved. Fear cannot save a person, only faith to the true Savior and Redeemer.

So what is the point of this entry? I still don't know myself. All I am saying is by now we should be more conscious of what's happening around us, to our country, to our world. This is not a lecture entry, THIS IS A WAKE UP CALL to those who believe that they may start evaluating themselves and start reaching out to others, to those who don't that they may start reassessing themselves and decide, and to me that I may start becoming a better person physically, mentally, emotionally, socially and spiritually.

Believing in Christ is a win win situation.

If we believe, do His commands and at the end He and those that are written in the Bible are not true, we still lived a good life and touched other people's lives positively by doing so.

If we believe, do His commands and at the end He exists and all those that are written in the Bible are true, then we have a sure ticket to eternal life.

We have nothing to lose. Why not give faith in Christ a shot?

A Very Long Weekend

November 30 is Bonifacio Day, a national holiday and a day of celebration for Filipinos espescially for students who mark all the calendar slots of the national holidays. It is a time to commemorate the heroic deeds Bonifacio has done for the Philippines and reflect on his life's works. Rrrriiiiigght... If classes weren't suspended on national holidays, I don't think people would even remember who/what the day is for.

Aaanyway...

December 1 (friday) classes were cancelled so that the November 30 celebration would not affect the overall flow of the week. Yey! a three day week end!

(Un)fortunately however, Thursday classes also had to be cancelled because of the typhoon Reming that was supposedly to hit NCR. I had no classes on Wednesday making my weekend five days long. Wow! NOw what do you do with a five day long weekend?

Since yesterday, I have been waiting for the storm to hit NCR. With all the excitement and clamor the Super Typhoon Reming has built up, it is no wonder that a lot of people is anticipating it's ravaging effects. However, no storm came save for the few raindrops we felt early morning today. Don't blame me for being somewhat disappointed because the storm changed path. The issue was already hyped and was even said to be stronger than Milenyo, yet I did not feel its effects.. Tsk tsk..

But after all this clamor about the storm, I am still thankful that we didn't die because of it's effects unlike those in the Bicol region. God may still be somehow saving us, saving me for a bigger task he has prepared.

Music Zealous - After Two and a Half Years

To be with old friends again is really fun, espescially if you haven't been together for a long time.

The Music Zealous, a singing group where I belong, was founded in 2001. I am one of the founding members and probably one of the best alto singers they ever had.. haha! Well anyway, I stopped, no not really stopped rather sang less when I along with my batchmates went to college. Heck, the group was in Mindoro, how are we supposed to sing from Manila? The members sort of lost contact with each other. Our leaders migrated to Manila as well. There were but a few members left without a leader. Most of the original members got together two and a half years ago, that was also the last time I remember we last sang together.The Music Zealous ceased to exist after three years, or so most of us thought.

Yesterday was a day to really remember. After two and a half years with almost no contact with each other, except for those who frequently go back to Mindoro, we got together and sang together in a church where we were completely strangers. We sang most of the time and maybe got a little carried away with the feeling of singing together again thus making the whole program seem like a musical program with a few speeches. The following are the members who were there:

• Kuya Robert - now an literature evangelist
• Ate Lorie - now a mother of two very pretty daughter
• Dempsy - without you there would be no get together
• Kuya Karl - thank you for helping Dempsy make this possible
• Che - salamat at lumabas ka rin ng AUP.. =D
• Glaiza - you really changed a lot.. nakakabigla
• MM - all grown up and becomming more beautiful
• Micah - still shy but definitely a dalaga now
• Shiela - working and earning.. wow!
• Heidi - came with two escorts and wouldn't even introduce to us who the real boyfriend was! Tsk Tsk..
• Ivan - still kikay, still so conscious about his looks but now his hairstyle's like astroboy's! haha
• Samuel - inang mother.. still the same
• Daryl - really tall and good looking.. You should really go for modelling Daryl.
• March - a working student at AUP.. he's taking up electronics
  
• Roan

The best surprise for me was not those people who came but when Auen sang solo. She is the eldest daughter of our director who, when I last saw her, was still a chubby little kid who still speaks bulol. Now, she's sings and mind you she sings very well for a six year old.

Some had to go home early, around 3:30pm. Others went a little after 6pm. We stayed until 8. The day was truly a blessing for all of us. Not only were we able to see each other again and catch up with each other's lives but we were able to sing together again for the Lord. It was a fun get together and we're planning to have another one like it to be held in BAESA, kuya Robert's place.

To those who were not able to come, too bad for you. hehe... Be there next time.. =D

Third Year at Last!

The first week of classes has officially begun. I am currently enrolled in 18 units (6 subjects). Four out of six subjects are majors and the other two are cognates. Yikes.. After three years in UP I can now call myself a bonifide junior.

Hell week hasn't begun yet, well not really. But for me, it's as if I have this new drive to become uber toxic even in the first days of classes. Well why not? After three years, this will be the first time that I'd immerse myself in "so much" major subjects. In the past two years I majored in GE (minors) and minored in Pol Sci. I had a change in majors last sem. From GE I became an Organizational Communications major, minoring in Psychology. Oooh.. Cool.. ^_^

Honestly, it's as if I'm a freshie again. The feeling is overwhelming. To be taking up majors you really want to take up is truly exciting. This will be my schedule for this sem:

MTh:

10.00-11.30 Org Comm 107 (Intercultural Communication)
1.00-2:30 Spanish 2

Wed:
8:30-11.30 Org Comm 140 (Organizational Communication Theories)

TF:
8:30-10.00 Org Comm 104 (Interpersonal Communication)
10.00-11.30 Dev Stud 128 (Human Resouce Management)
1.00-2.30 Dev Stud 126 (I forgot what this was.. )

My schedule's still kinda free. Anyone who wants to stalk me now knows my sched. So there. *stalk stalk stalk*

I give my thanks to Alex who "fixed" my blog layout and made it more interesting. *Thank you*

The 6th Beginning

Sheesh.. Here I am figuring out how to delete songs from iPod when what I should be thinking about is the incoming semester! Damn! I'm in 3rd year already? I feel really old. Well, maybe I should start acting more mature and more responsibly.. (I still can't believe that I'll be graduating in less than two years..) *stares blankly at the monitor*

[NOTE: Do not take this instructor's class]

The past sem was quite okay. I did relatively well although my grades were not high enough to qualify for the CS slot. I give the credit of my not achieving a GWA of 1.75 to Sir Abe Padilla, my Anthro 185 prof who gave me a shocking 3.0! Ang masaya pa, bago magtapos ang klase ipinagmalaki nyang passing lang ang binibigay nyang grade! Wow.. Really impressive. Because of that 3.0 my GWA averaged only 2.0 (1.958).. NIce.. Really nice.

I read Faye's blog (www.odalcaria.blogspot.com) a while ago and I would have to agree to what she said about Prof. Atoy Navarro. I consider him as one of the best professors I ever had in UP. Yun tipong strikto na matalino na magaling magturo at siguradong marami kang matututunan. Not only that, he gives just consideration to the effort a student has excerted in his class. And really, he does hand out 1s to everyone who deserves it. I got a 1.5 in his class though I am aware that I barely passed the finals. I deserved that grade despite the final exams. Heck, the whole class (with exception of a few) excerted a lot of effort just to satisfy his whims regarding papers, presentations, and recitations. And believe me, those whims were very hard to satiate. Thank you so much sir Atoy for acknowledging our efforts.

[NOTE: Author highly recommends this professor]

I am once again at the brink of a new semester. New teachers, new subjects, a new chance to get high grades (which I doubt because from what I just heard, DAC teachers have "high" standards a.k.a. give low grades). But as the saying goes, "Do you best and God will do the rest." I'll do my best and trust God to work miracles in the teachers hearts.. ^_^

iPod + iTunes = Stupid?

Hindi ko alam kung ako ang natatanga sa paggamit ng iPod o meron talagang mali sa set-up ng iPod. Either way sumasakit na ang ulo ko sa pagkutinting ng ipod ng pinsan ko.

Dahil malapit na ang pasko, malapit na rin ang birthday nya at gagraduate na rin sya ng elementary sa March, niregaluhan ng tita ko na nasa states ang pinsan ko ng 1GB na iPod nano. Wow! buti pa sya, samantalang nung nag debut ako, $120 lang ang binigay sa akin.. tsktsk.. Anyway dahil ako lang ang marunong mag-upload ng songs sa mp3/mp4 players dito sa probinsya, sa akin nagpa-upload ang pinsan ko.

I was able to put 118 songs (non converted) to the iPod with no trouble at all. However, I needed to transfer almost 1GB of files to the lap top from the desktop for burning. Nung idi-delete ko na ang files, hindi ko sya magawa. Sinunod ko yung nasa manual at napagod lang ako. Ang finaflash ng iTunes sa monitor e zero(0) songs pero kapag tiningnan ang available memory ng iPod, hindi nadagdagan.

I went to the Apple website to find out how to delete songs from nano's memory. Ang dami nya'ng nilabas na search results pero nung nag click ako ng lick ang lumabas "This page cannot be found." I tried it a lot of links but the result was still the same.

I'm really getting frustrated because I need to burn the files badly. Tsk tsk. Why can't Apple just put a "delete song" or "delete songs" option so that it would be a lot easier. Honestly the whole proccess of selecting songs from the iTunes library then right clicking then choosing "clear" and re-updating the iPod is so complicated that in my case, it just won't work.

Hay.. Ngayon nagta-tyaga akong maglipat ng walong files na approx. 180MB ang isa gamit ang 256MB na flash disk. Good luck naman sa kin, anong petsa pa ko matatapos...

T_T

I Let Go

This will be my first ever written entry regarding what happened last May. The event involved yours truly, yours truly's boyfriend, and a certain girl that we can hide by the name Kristine Faith.

Last May 2006, yours truly's boyfriend's sister texted him that a girl who was a bride's maid at her wedding and a cousin of her husband claims to be a friend of him from way back their elementary days. Kristine Faith(not her real name) said that she and yours truly's boyfriend met at a science camp or press conference (I'm really not sure which is which because it seems that they met on both occasions). She insisted that she knew yours truly's boyfriend. Yours truly's boyfriend on the other hand was intrigued by who this long-lost-friend could be so he asked for the girl's number. He saw her picture, he knew the name, she did not even ring a bell yet they had this texting relationship that lasted until last September.

They saw each other behind my back. I was aware that there was a girl, a friend but there was just this nagging feeling that something was not right so I continued to nag yours truly's boyfriend every now and then to STOP whatever was going on between them. He said it was nothing. I didn't believe him.

June 14, 2006 around 4 in the afternoon. We were at our org's tambayan, he had to go to the bathroom so he left me his phone. The girl coincidentally texted
"Be (short for baby) kain tayo...ü"
I instantly felt cold.
"Be?!" was all I can think of responding.
She said "Oo, bakit? Ayaw mo ba? Dilis ang ulam ko"

I went to where yours truly's boyfriend was, fortunately he was not inside the boy's toilet or else i would have had to go in. I could not say anything. I just wept. The issue lasted for more than a month. Heck, it "ended" only last September. It ended for them, but the hurt was still and I don't know until when it will be fresh for me.

During the course of our conference regarding the matter, I found out that they already had exchanged I love yous as a joke. A very careless joke indeed. I also found out that they have been calling each other "Be" for quite sometime. The girl admitted to have fallen for yours truly's boyfriend. Kristine Faith(not her real name) said she had this feeling since they were in grade school. She believed in fate so much - i.e. she being a bride's maid in his sister's wedding, she getting hold of her number, she having this communication with yours truly's boyfriend - that everything was as if it was God's plan for her!

I let this matter pass for a while because she told me that she did not know that yours truly's boyfriend had a girlfriend. I couldn't blame her for falling for him especially if she did not know that yours truly's boyfriend's real status was. I accepted this alibi and blamed it all on him. Well, this was until yours truly's boyfriend's sister told me that she already told Kristine Faith(not her real name) that her brother was already taken.

She become my friend on Friendster, I read her blogs, bulletin posts and kept an eye on her. I loathed every bit of her. I said I won't forget the hurt she caused as long as I lived and I wanted her to suffer just the same.

On the proccess of despising her, I noticed that it brought more hurt to me than it did to Kristine Faith(not her real name). Everytime I refreshed the memories of the May-September affair, I couldn't help but writhe in pain inside. I was hurting more. She was going on with her life.

Tonight I am letting go.

I have deleted her name in my list of friends. I have exposed my feelings to the whole internet community hoping that someday she would read this and be aware of what I felt. What she did, I will not forget but at least the pain won't be that much and eventually dissappear.

Iam still with yours truly's boyfriend. I hope I am stronger. I wish this would not happen again.

With heavy exhalation of air, I let go.

Undas

"Tinatamad ka bang dalawing ang
iyong loved ones sa sementeryo?
Text DALAW ON at i-send sa 2366.
Sila mismo and dadalaw sayo! Text na!"

Isa lang yan sa mga jokes tungkol sa undas na natanggap ko kahapon. Yung ibang sinabihan ko na ang mga loved ones na lang namin ang dapat dumalaw sa min, medyo nag freak out. Ayan tuloy, naakusahan pa ko na wala daw akong paggalang sa patay. Sorry sa maooffend pero galangin ko man ang patay o hindi, hindi na rin nila malalaman yun.

Sa totoo lang, nagkaroon ng impact sa akin yung text messages na nagsa-suggest na tayo dapat ang dinadalaw ng mga yumao nating mahal sa buhay. Bakit kamo? Dahil sa totoo naman bukod sa kaligayahang naidudulot ng pagkansela ng mga klase at pasok sa pampamahalaan at ibang pampribadong institusyon, sobrang stress physically, financially at emotionally ang naibibigay ng Undas.

Sa mga balita tuwing undas nandyan kadalasan ang sobrang traffic at pagsisiksikan sa mga pier (physical stress), ang pagiging in demand ng bulaklak, pintura at kandila na hindi naman pinagaatubiliang taasan ng presyo ng mga nagtitinda (financial stress). Nanriyan din ang muling paggunita sa mga maliligayang panahong na kasama ang mga loved ones na minsa'y nagiging dahilan pa ng kanilang maagang pagkamatay (emotional stress). Tsk tsk.

Ganito ba talaga ka-gahul ang tao sa oras at kailangan pang magsiksikan sa mga sementeryo tuwing November 1? Hindi ba nila pwedeng gawin yun, ang pagdalaw at pag-aayos ng puntod, sa ibang araw kung kelan mas konti ang tao, mas mura ang mga paninda, at kung kelan makakapag grave robbing pa?

Anyway, dapat din nating makita ang kabutihang naidudulot ng Undas. Una, nagkakaroon ng instant reunion ang mag-anak. Dito nagkakatipon tipon ulit ang mga kasambahay na matagal nagkawalay. Ang masaya pa, every year nauulit to. Yun nga lang, every year paunti na rin ng paunti ang dumadalaw at parami ng parami ang dinadalaw.

Pangalawa, FOOD. Oo, nagkakaroon ng mga munting salu salo sa mga puntod ng minamahal kung saan matapos iyakan at tirikan ng kandila ang nitso ay lalatagan ng mantel at gagawing dining table ang mga ito. Shet! Dual purpose!

Pangatlo, nagiging malinis at kaaya ayang tingnan muli ang mga sementeryo. Ewan ko kung bakit pero parang may annual schedule ang mga kamag-anak na i-redecorate ang mga nitso/mosoleum/lupa kung saan naroon ang mga namatay ng loved ones.

Siguro marami pang benefits ang Undas na di ko nailagay, kayo na lang bahala magdadagdag. Basta ako, hinayaan kong sila ang dumalaw sa akin. Unfortunately, mukhang hinintay din nila na ako ang dadalaw sa kanila. So, sa katapus tapusan, di din kami nagpangita.

Porque?

These are the questions going on my mind at present. Questions where i need neither a yes or a no answer. Questions that need a hell lot of explanation for an answer...

1. Why do people blog?
I mean, what the heck is it with publishing your thoughts, feelings online?

2. Why am I blogging?
A question I myself could only answer. It may take a little while before I find the reason for this act though. My answer to this might lead to my finding the answer for the first question.

3. Why can't I get a certain girl out of my mind?
She tried and was on the process of stealing my boyfriend a few months back and I still want her dead, why? Sorry..

4. Why do I feel so empty?
Oh God, I think I really need You.

5. Why do I have this undying urge to make a lot of money?

Come to think of it, it is I who needs to discover the answers to these questions. A little bit of self discovery, as many would put it. *sigh* Oh well, another journey to the self. I thought I already got a 1.5 in that subject (Psych 10)? Anyway, here I am taking another journey back to the self because really, I still don't have a clue to who I really am, what I really want, and who I will become...

I think my template's cool by the way. So white, as if everything is so serene. Well, it's still AS IF.