Sembreak na!!

Yan ang sigaw ng karamihan ng kaklase ko. Pero ako.. wala. Wala na talaga akong sembreak. Alam kong hinanda ko na ang sarili ko pero kahapon ko lang narealize na walang wala na talaga akong sembreak.

"S-leepful nights
E-xam free days
M-orning smiles
B-atugan mode
R-estful afternoons
E-xcessive eating
A-blazing energy
K-ahirapan: walang allowance"

Natanggap ko to nung isang araw, galing kay JP. Parang gusto ko magreply, "sige JP, rub it in :("

Kahapon ang unang araw ng MarkProf meeting. Nakakastress. Oo, masaya. Pero nakakastress. Mararamdaman mo talaga ang competetiveness ng mga tao. May mga tao rin namang magtataas lang ng kamay para may masabi pero wala namang sense. Pero karamihan, over-achievers talaga.

Natouch ako sa sinabi nung founder, si Ding Salvador. Isa kasi ya kasi sa nag-interview sa group namin nung 2nd screening. Sabi nya, "who here was from the group I interviewed during the 2nd screening?", nagtaas kami ng kamay. Tapos sabi nya "who's the girl from UP Manila?", e di nagtaas ako ng kamay. Sabi nya, "I fought hard for you."

Wow. Naalala nya ko. Hindi lang yun, pinaglaban nya na makapasok ako. Hindi lang yun, naniwala sya na may potential ako. Saya.

Unang meeting pa lang, dapat orientation lang ang mangyayari pero hindi. May konting lectures na kami saka assignment na hindi ko maintindihan kung anong gagawin. Kelangan daw icompare yung market-driving strategy nung company/brand na nakaasign sa akin sa traditional chorva nung chorvang brand. Pramis, ang alam ko lang na marketing e yung nakita ko sa sari sari store ng lola ko. Nasabaw ako. Nahiya akong magtanong kung ano yung traditional pero ngayon narealize ko dapat nagtanong ako kasi four pages yung kelangan namin ipasa sa sabado. Sabaw. Unang una, ano yung traditional? Pangalawa, ano yung Metro International na kumpanya? Pwede namang Nintendo Wii yung mapunta sa akin, o kaya Ikea, o kaya Cebu Pacific, bakit Metro International? :( Tapos hindi lang yun. May second assignment na rin kami due sa November 3.

Pero masaya. Masaya talaga. Pinagpapasa na kami ng resume (wow, buti naalala ko, sa 25 na rin nga pala to ipapasa) kasi naghahanap na ang Johnson & Johnson at Unilever ng applicants. Tapos ang saya ng incentive. Kapag nanalo kami sa case study, may 20,000 php! Tapos pag valedictorian ka pa ng batch, another 10,000php! Woohoo! Kung may ganitong motivation lang ang UP, shet, Suma Cum Laude ako! Hahaha!

May Markprof bag, notebook and jacket rin na kasama. Tapos para kaming laging mag ooffice. Hindi naman business formal ang attire pero business casual. Libre ang AM snack, lunch saka PM snack. Yung canteen ng Asia Pacific College, yung college na pagmamayari ni Henry Sy, parang food court ng SM! Nakakatuwa! Pati yung mga CR nila.

Pero ang ganda ng room namin. Auditorium style na 40 person capacity lang. Ang lamig lamig! Next week si Emily Abrera ng McCann ang lecturer namin. Hah! Exciting!

Nga pala, sa mga 3rd year OrCom na may leadership capabilities at gustong magtry ng marketing: Humihingi ang MarkProf ng referrals para sa "sure" slots for MarkProf next year. Tapos pwede rin kayo mag sit-in sa isa sa mga lectures namin. Free food, free seminar from the business industry's biggest names. Kung interested kayo, text nyo ko sa 0927-3069599 or PM nyo ko dito. Pramis, once in a life time thing to. At sobrang fulfilling ng pakiramdam.

Questions on How I Work

Maybe this is a sequel of my previous post Reasons Why I'd Rather Work Alone or Else Work With Just Alex.

Having to work with different groups now makes me think on two things. First, I'm really better off alone, and second is there something wrong with the way I lead or is there something wrong with how other people lead? I have posted a rather harsh entry on the former thought so I'm not going into the details of that.

"....if the group sleeps tight and sound tonight and tomorrow night I WILL KILL myself and YOU." was one of the frustrated messages I received today. I know, we are all in shock and in so much disappointment over what happened, how he reacted. I understand that you spent more time on this project basically because you said it was "your passion". I know, I understand when you seem to have all the workload in the world and your group mates seem to be slacking off. As much as I would like to defend myself and the other group members over the slacking off thing, I'd rather not. Not because that statement is true but because that's not the whole point of this blog (note: re read the title to get the flow of thought again).

As I have said, I know the frustration and the head/heartache caused by such incidents. But now, as I look back, I wonder if I was ever that forward about my feelings towards my (past, present, and future) group mates. And then I realize, I am still too passive. Bitchy, yes, but passive.

I am the type of person that (as I have reiterated over and over again) would rather work alone. Not because I can't work well with groups (in fact, I work super good with groups), but because I tend to get disappointed easily with mediocre work.

I am not that forward with how I feel about my group mates, unless provoked or unless I'm really close with those I work with. If I didn't like something, I'd inform the person he/she did a good job but the work needs to me modified so I'll change it. It usually ends up great. And now, I ask myself "Am I too passive?". For one, I could never ever send messages of negativity more so death threats to my group mates. I tend to be over optimistic at times for my group mates to feel more positive about the work, but sulk in a corner and get eaten up with pessimism when I'm alone. At times I want to scream, "Hey, I did that all by myself" but would dismiss the feeling when the group gets praised for it. Now I don't know if what I have been doing all along, of encouraging the group and sulking by myself or voicing my concerns on other people, is a really good thing. I know it isn't.

Maybe I'm trying too hard to be a charismatic type of leader that I end up not being the ideal transformational one (wear your OrCom Hat - Barrientos, 2008). I didn't take the lead this time because I know I couldn't commit as much as the other people with passion for the job can. However, the "what if I took over?" "what if I commented on this?" "what if I committed more?" phrases crossed my mind.

Yes, I've been delinquent this semester. But I still have until Saturday to make up for it.

By the way, I hate you Barry. You say things I want to but cannot say. :)

Frozen Yogurt is Love!

I have definitely found a new comfort food, White Hat frozen yogurt! It's really so yummy and the fruit toppings are just superb!

Here's a pic that the White Hat crew of MOA took and uploaded in their website. Imagine, instant endorser!

You should definitely try it. A cup costs 85 pesos though, if you're saving up, that's a lot. But I tell you, it's so worth it.

Photo from: http://www.thewhitehat.com.ph/gallery/a1/p9

Damn, where could I get a White Hat frozen yogurt at this time? I'm craving for one.

PRSP, Thesis, Ad Campaign, Burn's Final Paper, Barry's Special Project

The PRSP grand prix ended last Sunday. Finally! One major event down. Congrats to the Sportan's for bagging the bronze, will post pictures as soon as my internet connection becomes faster. :D Libre!

I can now focus on three other things:
Ad Campaign (due on Oct 6, Monday at 8.30am)
Thesis Proposal (due on Oct 10, Friday at 12nn)
Burn's Final Paper (due on Oct 18, Sat at 9am)
Barry's Special Project (due on Oct 18, Sat at 9am)

Fun, isn't it?

I don't want to put these as a calendar entry because I'll have a visual representation of my toxicity.. which until now I am trying to deny. I think of all the things I have to do, I cringe at the fact that all these things make such a "heavy" load, then I drown the panic and tension with big doses of Heroes, Bleach, Fringe, House, ANTM cycle 11 and Project Runway season 5.

I am in BIG denial that I have lots of things to do. My thesis topic isn't that ready yet and I have to pass a proposal next week. *roll on the floor dying*

I need to focus. First things first. Ad Campaign. Hey groupmates! What happened to you? Where's our NGO? So because I haven't heard from them yet, might as well start on my thesis.. or Heroes? or House? or Fringe? or Bleach? or ANTM cycle 11? or Project Runway season 5?

I am dead. So this is what graduating feels like.