Last Trip

I'm 1.5 hours away from the pier. I have to leave now or else I won't make it to the last trip. Anyway, there are still lots of RORO ships where I can ride.

I'm converting videos that's taking forever to put into MP4s. Im risking my time for money. Hell! The things I do nowadays for money. NO. I am still not on the verge of selling myself for the pleasure of others. God! I'm so frustrated!

I am right now being controlled by the will to have money. Come to think of it, I shouldn't be worrying myself with how to have more money because I have more than enough for myself. Just as what my mom said "habang nagaaral ka, responsibilidad pa rin namin ikaw". I can't even really really enjoy the company of my friends or my loved ones nowadays because I am so filled with the overwhelming need to have money. I'm so frustrated because I can't even truly enjoy myself. It shouldn't be like this. I'm so... frustrated.

To everyone who's experiencing being neglected by me, I truly am sorry. It's a personal thing and I apologize for not being the Roan I used to be. It'll be over soon, I hope.

It's 3:33pm. I won't make the last trip. Still I have to go.

Happy Valentine's Day

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

My 20th Post! Woohoo! :D

Happy Valentine's day, happy hearts day, happy valentines, hapi balentimes, maligayang araw ng mga puso! Whatever your style of greeting may be, I wish you all a very blessed heart's day!

Today i received a bouquet of flowers, got a breakfast treat, went to Ayala Museum, watched a movie, ate lunch somewhere.. yada yada yada.. How did your day go?

At the end of the day when everything to be done on valentine's day was over with, I am left staring clueless at the monitor, thinking of what to do next... *whirring of CPU fan*

I AM BORED! Damn bored!

If valentine's day would be celebrated, it should be like how Christmas is celebrated: dinner at midnight of the 14th, giving of flowers, sleep, then when day breaks you two go somewhere really non typical... Oh well, that would cost a lot. Besides, February 14th is near December 25th. People may still have no money while others may still have their Christmas trees on display.

What the heck is Valentine's day for anyway? It gives florists a chance to sell flowers when it's still not the first of November. It brings more money to companies like Ferrero Rocher, Hershey's, Cadbury, Nestle, Jack 'n Jill, and Goya. It obliges guys to spend their cash on bouquets that will eventually wilt and chocolates that would not last an hour. It gives girls who are in a relationship or a possible relationship a chance to feel special and those who are not even close to having a relationship but is desperate for one to scowl around all day and dream that prince charming would come someday.

I think Valentine's day was invented by a girl who was loveless so that she'll have an excuse to force guys to give something to her. Come to think of it, girls are the ones greatly affected by the valentine day phenomenon. How often do guys receive something on valentine's day? Heck! I haven't even handed anything to my guy today. I just skulked most of the afternoon because I was frustrated that he did not have enough money to buy me pizza. Tsk tsk... I feel bad... *scratches head*

I just realized, I haven't told him I loved him today. We actually fought over where to eat. It was primarily my mistake because I wanted to have pizza so bad but was so frustrated to have no money for it (I still want pizza though. I've been craving for it for like weeks!). I still feel bad. I'm having a bitch fit right now and I won't apologize or even make "lambing". Grrr! It makes me feel worse!

Oh well.. Got to go and find out how to end this day right.

What's Up?

So yeah, its been like a month since I last wrote. So many things have happened to the point that making a blog entry for each of those would be too tiresome.. haha! What a lame excuse for being too lazy to write! :D

So, what's up lately? Well, we're (Alex and I) into laptop/pc reselling stuff. So far we sold but two (shocks! only two??) units of HP Compaq desktops. I just don't know why people would want a high end PC and then complain about the price. I mean, duh! If you don't have the money for it then settle for a PC that's mid end to low end depending on your budget.

Anyway, I find myself wondering the depth of their dumbness when it comes to being practical. On top of that I also find myself "amused" at how people with no money keep on spending their cash to upgrade computers they just bought. I mean, come on! You don't need those kinds of specifications! It's impractical and would be a mere enhancement to your already big ego.

The weather's been erratic lately. There was a couple of weeks when the temperature was so chilly it made me scared of taking a bath! The water in the morning and evening would be stingingly cold so I'd take baths on the afternoon. Imagine, Baguio was 10 degrees colder than LA. However, these past days the temperature would be so cold at night and so hot in the daytime. Not only that, during the day there would be times when it would get very cloudy and cold then after 15-30 minutes would go back to being hot. Scary. *Looks up to the sky* "Lord, are you near already?"

I've been doing great in school. My quizzes would mostly be perfect, I'd participate well in class, my reports had high marks, everything seems to be okay. I pray that this would continue 'til I graduate. "Dear God, thank You so much for Your help. I couldn't have done it without You."

I'm here in Mindoro right now, supposedly collecting data for my case study yet I seem to have no energy to do that yet. If only I had no classes on monday, I'd stay here until then. My trip earlier was one of the most tiring trips I ever had. It usually takes us only and hour and a half to travel from Calapan to Pinamalayan but earlier it took me almost three! Waah!

Anyway, I'm still too tired to write a long long long entry to compensate for the time I haven't written. So there.

*dozes off in front of the PC*