I know you like me
I know you do
That's why whenever I come around
She's all over you
And I know you want it
It's easy to see
And in the back of your mind
I know you should be on with me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me
Don't cha
Don't cha
Don't you wish your girlfriend was raw like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me
Don't cha
Don't cha
Fight the feeling
Leave it alone
Cause if it ain't love it just ain't enough
To leave a happy home
Let's keep it friendly
You have to play fair
See, I don't care
But I know she ain't gon' wanna
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Don't Cha
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
I'm Back!
"Magandang araw po sa inyo mga ka-You. Ako si Roan at ito ang YOU, ang programa kung saan ikaw ang bida!"
Yes folks, after a week long workshop, I'm back to my monotonous vacation life. Haha. That seminar was probably the highlight of my two months of bumming around. The past week spelled out nothing but F-U-N (oh and T-I-R-I-N-G and T-O-X-I-C). To top that off, I got a little skinnier because of my "health food" diet and prolly lack of sleep.
I met people from Laguna, Quezon, Occidental Mindoro, and Batangas. They were fun to be with which made me think why in the world did I join a mission wide event just now?
Let me give you a recap of the whole week just to let you know how tiringly fun it was.
May 21, Monday
We arrived at around 8.30 in the morning. Orientation was to start at 10. We didn't even get the chance to have even a bit of a shut eye. Anyway, I'm used to not sleeping so it really didn't matter. Had lunch at 12 and resumed the thingy at 1.30. Dinner was at 6 and at 7, the acting workshop began. Thank heavens, I joined Tanghalang Batingaw for a year. Acting was a piece of cake. Haha. We were allowed to sleep at around 1am (Note: I haven't slept the previous night and here I was burning my acting ass off). We had to be ready by 7.30 in the morning.
May 22, Tuesday
Set my alarm at 5.45, woke up thirty minutes earlier. Why not, almost all of my room mates were up. Had to bathe and eat to be prepared for later's activities. We had a boring morning session about script writing. Good thing Kuya Bobot was sitting beside me. At least I had someone to talk to and pass the time. However, I really really wish I just slept. Haha.
The afternoon event was more entertaining! We were grouped into six where we were to make our own stint depending on what was assigned to us. Our group was tasked to make ads and stuff for marketing. It was more light compared to what the other teams had to do. It was fun! Plus I got to work with those who I wanted to work with from the start. They were Luke Ivan (Occ. Mdo), Grace Ann (Lucban, Quezon), Aladin (Occ. Mdo.), Yvonne (Or. Mdo), Robert (Or. Mdo.) and our invisible groupmate Grace (Laguna).
May 23, Wednesday
On location shooting at the West Valley Complex in Masin Sur, Candelaria, Quezon was our activity for that day. Our group was assigned to do a musical act via the kids of their church. I didn't know how it went since I pulled out from my group to aid the marketing committee.
The whole day was more relaxing and the place was really good. Their church was cozy and air conditioned. A lot of us slept inside the church. Ah. Now that's what you call a house of God. Hehe.
May 24, Thursday
We had to make our own production as a group wherein drama, newscasting, hosting, musical, marketing and PA would be incorporated. I directed for our group, hosted for another and did a drama act for the 5th group. The whole shoot took us hours! Thirteen hours to be exact. Group one started at around 2pm and group six was able to finish at 3am. The life of an actor is so tiring. Haha.
May 25, Friday
After all that we did the previous night, we had to do a remake because nobody was able to reach the 45 minute quota. It was hilarious. All of us were dead tired yet we had to make another production. Good thing, Direk Raffy made all 33 of us members of a single group. The work was highly specified resulting to a speedier wrap up.
I left for Manila at around three in the afternoon. Watched Shrek the Third and Pirates of the Caribbean on Saturday and Sunday respectively. My reviews for these movies will be posted at my friendster account.
What if I was made to be a media person after all?
Yes folks, after a week long workshop, I'm back to my monotonous vacation life. Haha. That seminar was probably the highlight of my two months of bumming around. The past week spelled out nothing but F-U-N (oh and T-I-R-I-N-G and T-O-X-I-C). To top that off, I got a little skinnier because of my "health food" diet and prolly lack of sleep.
I met people from Laguna, Quezon, Occidental Mindoro, and Batangas. They were fun to be with which made me think why in the world did I join a mission wide event just now?
Let me give you a recap of the whole week just to let you know how tiringly fun it was.
May 21, Monday
We arrived at around 8.30 in the morning. Orientation was to start at 10. We didn't even get the chance to have even a bit of a shut eye. Anyway, I'm used to not sleeping so it really didn't matter. Had lunch at 12 and resumed the thingy at 1.30. Dinner was at 6 and at 7, the acting workshop began. Thank heavens, I joined Tanghalang Batingaw for a year. Acting was a piece of cake. Haha. We were allowed to sleep at around 1am (Note: I haven't slept the previous night and here I was burning my acting ass off). We had to be ready by 7.30 in the morning.
May 22, Tuesday
Set my alarm at 5.45, woke up thirty minutes earlier. Why not, almost all of my room mates were up. Had to bathe and eat to be prepared for later's activities. We had a boring morning session about script writing. Good thing Kuya Bobot was sitting beside me. At least I had someone to talk to and pass the time. However, I really really wish I just slept. Haha.
The afternoon event was more entertaining! We were grouped into six where we were to make our own stint depending on what was assigned to us. Our group was tasked to make ads and stuff for marketing. It was more light compared to what the other teams had to do. It was fun! Plus I got to work with those who I wanted to work with from the start. They were Luke Ivan (Occ. Mdo), Grace Ann (Lucban, Quezon), Aladin (Occ. Mdo.), Yvonne (Or. Mdo), Robert (Or. Mdo.) and our invisible groupmate Grace (Laguna).
May 23, Wednesday
On location shooting at the West Valley Complex in Masin Sur, Candelaria, Quezon was our activity for that day. Our group was assigned to do a musical act via the kids of their church. I didn't know how it went since I pulled out from my group to aid the marketing committee.
The whole day was more relaxing and the place was really good. Their church was cozy and air conditioned. A lot of us slept inside the church. Ah. Now that's what you call a house of God. Hehe.
May 24, Thursday
We had to make our own production as a group wherein drama, newscasting, hosting, musical, marketing and PA would be incorporated. I directed for our group, hosted for another and did a drama act for the 5th group. The whole shoot took us hours! Thirteen hours to be exact. Group one started at around 2pm and group six was able to finish at 3am. The life of an actor is so tiring. Haha.
May 25, Friday
After all that we did the previous night, we had to do a remake because nobody was able to reach the 45 minute quota. It was hilarious. All of us were dead tired yet we had to make another production. Good thing, Direk Raffy made all 33 of us members of a single group. The work was highly specified resulting to a speedier wrap up.
I left for Manila at around three in the afternoon. Watched Shrek the Third and Pirates of the Caribbean on Saturday and Sunday respectively. My reviews for these movies will be posted at my friendster account.
What if I was made to be a media person after all?
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Just a Thought
You'd notice at which month I am the busiest just by looking at the number of posts I had for that month. March only had one post. It was HELL month, I tell you. And May amazingly has eleven, the most number of entries in a month so far. May is probably the month where I bum the most! Haha!
Oh wait, with this entry, May has a dozen posts! :D
Oh wait, with this entry, May has a dozen posts! :D
Broadcast Communication and TV Production Seminar
From May 21-26, our church will be holding a week long broad comm and TV production camp. I've anticipated this event for weeks now. In a few hours, my fellow delegates will be picking me up so that we may travel together to San Pablo, Laguna where the event will be held.
However, what I'm feeling right now is far from excitement. This is the feeling I get whenever I leave home. I'm feeling really sad about having to be far away from my family for even a week. I'm definitely gonna miss my brother. Actually, I think my brother is the only person holding me back (although he really wanted me to go expecting "surprises" when I come back).
I don't know what to expect. The last time I went for a week long camp was way back in my junior year in high school (I'm an incoming senior in college). So you do the math.
I think I over packed stuff. I don't even know if I'll be using this much clothes in six days. But what the heck, it's a TV prod camp, I should always look good. Is it too much to bring a pair of slip ons, a pair of formal shoes, slippers and rubber shoes? :/ Grr.. The hard part of being a girl! Ang daming kaartehan! I had to change bags THREE times because the other two were just too small. I don't even know how many comfy shirts did I pack as opposed to those not so comfy but oh so classy.. tsk tsk.. Oh well.
I'll be bringing three bags all in all. One big back pack for majority of my stuff, one average sized body bag for small things that are important, and my laptop bag for, well, my laptop. I have to drag this thing along because we'll be editing videos and stuff (and for that I thank my ever so techy Dadei for teaching me the basic know how of video editing! :D)
I'm waiting for them to pick me up. It's 8:28 pm. They said they will be coming at around 9pm. I just hope they won't be late.
However, what I'm feeling right now is far from excitement. This is the feeling I get whenever I leave home. I'm feeling really sad about having to be far away from my family for even a week. I'm definitely gonna miss my brother. Actually, I think my brother is the only person holding me back (although he really wanted me to go expecting "surprises" when I come back).
I don't know what to expect. The last time I went for a week long camp was way back in my junior year in high school (I'm an incoming senior in college). So you do the math.
I think I over packed stuff. I don't even know if I'll be using this much clothes in six days. But what the heck, it's a TV prod camp, I should always look good. Is it too much to bring a pair of slip ons, a pair of formal shoes, slippers and rubber shoes? :/ Grr.. The hard part of being a girl! Ang daming kaartehan! I had to change bags THREE times because the other two were just too small. I don't even know how many comfy shirts did I pack as opposed to those not so comfy but oh so classy.. tsk tsk.. Oh well.
I'll be bringing three bags all in all. One big back pack for majority of my stuff, one average sized body bag for small things that are important, and my laptop bag for, well, my laptop. I have to drag this thing along because we'll be editing videos and stuff (and for that I thank my ever so techy Dadei for teaching me the basic know how of video editing! :D)
I'm waiting for them to pick me up. It's 8:28 pm. They said they will be coming at around 9pm. I just hope they won't be late.
All You Wanted
ALL YOU WANTED
Michelle Branch
I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
Michelle Branch
I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Love Story
I cannot understand why one person would be sending me (and everyone else in her address book) emails containing several love stories. I hate these kinds of love stories, most of them are about regrets, about losing someone you hold dear, about death, about all those sad (sometimes stupid) things people do to their loved ones.
I cry a lot and I cry even at the cheesiest love stories, that's why I hate these heart breakers. They make me cry. I can feel the bittersweet emotions of the characters as the other person's love for them is unveiled but then again it is too late.
Despite me not wanting to cry over cheesy stories, here I am killing time through reading those emails. I want to feel again maybe that's why I endure the heart crushing tales. I want to feel the love the characters felt, the pain, the joy, everything.
Maybe I am just too cheesy. Maybe I am too influenced by what I see on TV or what these emails contain. I don't know. Anyway, what do I know these days?
"I'm so sick of love songs, so sad and slow. So why can't I turn off the radio?"
I cry a lot and I cry even at the cheesiest love stories, that's why I hate these heart breakers. They make me cry. I can feel the bittersweet emotions of the characters as the other person's love for them is unveiled but then again it is too late.
Despite me not wanting to cry over cheesy stories, here I am killing time through reading those emails. I want to feel again maybe that's why I endure the heart crushing tales. I want to feel the love the characters felt, the pain, the joy, everything.
Maybe I am just too cheesy. Maybe I am too influenced by what I see on TV or what these emails contain. I don't know. Anyway, what do I know these days?
"I'm so sick of love songs, so sad and slow. So why can't I turn off the radio?"
Monday, May 14, 2007
Halalan 2007
It's seven hours before voting precints open. Seven hours and yet I still haven't filled the 12 slots for the senatorial position. Here are the names I'm sure of putting on my ballot:
1. Chiz Escudero
2. Joker Arroyo
3. Ed Angara
4. Kiko Pangilinan
5. Panfilo Lacson
6. Miguel Zubiri
7. Ralph Recto
8. Mike Defensor
I need twelve and so far only eight were qualified enough for me. I have no idea wether Aquino is good or whether he is running under the shadow of his father. Legarda is so over rated when, come to think of it, she's so balimbing. Peter Cayetano is very tactless, besides there's already a Cayetano in the senate and I am against political dynasties.
Come to think of it, even if I add these three to my list I still have one slot available. Who to put? I really have no idea. It's as if I'm asking myself "who would steal less from the country's budget?"
Here's the official list of the senatorial candidates:
1 ANGARA, Edgardo J. Ed LABAN
2 AQUINO, Benigno Simeon III C.* Noynoy Liberal Party
3 ARROYO, Joker P. Joker Kabalikat ng Malayang Pilipino
4 BAUTISTA, Martin D. Dr. B Ang Kapatiran
5 CANTAL, Felix C. Peck Philippine Green Republic Party
6 CAYETANO, Alan Peter S. ** Compa_ero Nacionalista Party
7 CAYETANO, Joselito P. *** Peter Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
8 CHAVEZ, Melchor G. Mel Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
9 COSETENG, Anna Dominique M. Nikki Independent
10 DEFENSOR, Michael T. Tol Lakas-CMD
11 ENCISO, Ruben C. Bobby Enciso Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
12 ESCUDERO, Francis Joseph G. Chiz Nationalist People’s Coalition
13 ESTRELLA, Antonio L. Tony Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
14 GOMEZ, Richard I. Goma Independent
15 HONASAN, Gregorio B. Gringo Independent
16 KIRAM, Jamalul D. Kiram PDSP
17 LACSON, Panfilo M. Ping UNO
18 LEGARDA, Loren B. Loren Nationalist People’s Coalition
19 LOZANO, Oliver O. Oli Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
20 MAGSAYSAY, Vicente P. Vic Lakas-CMD
21 MONTANO, Cesar M. Buboy Lakas-CMD
22 ORETA, Teresa Tao A. Tessie Nationalist People’s Coalition
23 ORPILLA, Eduardo F. Ed Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
24 OSMENA, John Henry R. Sonny UNO
25 PANGILINAN, Francis N. * Kiko Liberal Party
26 PAREDES, Zosimo Jesus II M. Jess Paredes Ang Kapatiran
27 PICHAY, Prospero Jr. A. Butch Lakas-CMD
28 PIMENTEL, Aquilino L. Koko PDP-Laban
29 RECTO, Ralph G. Korecto Lakas-CMD
30 ROCO, Sonia M. Inang Guro Aksyon Demokratiko
31 SINGSON, Luis C. Chavit Lakas-CMD
32 SISON, Adrian O. Dado Ang Kapatiran
33 SOTTO, Vicente III C. Tito Nationalist People’s Coaltion
34 TRILLANES, Antonio IV F. Magdalo UNO
35 VILLAR, Manuel Jr., B. Manny Nacionalista Party
36 WOOD, Victor N. Vic Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
37 ZUBIRI, Juan Miguel F. Migz Lakas-CMD
Those working under some of this people are more qualified to work in the senate than they are. Being a senator is one of the top positions in the country. Choosing who to place there is hard considering the fact that only a handful are promising enough.
They spend millions on campaign materials, what do they get in return?
1. Chiz Escudero
2. Joker Arroyo
3. Ed Angara
4. Kiko Pangilinan
5. Panfilo Lacson
6. Miguel Zubiri
7. Ralph Recto
8. Mike Defensor
I need twelve and so far only eight were qualified enough for me. I have no idea wether Aquino is good or whether he is running under the shadow of his father. Legarda is so over rated when, come to think of it, she's so balimbing. Peter Cayetano is very tactless, besides there's already a Cayetano in the senate and I am against political dynasties.
Come to think of it, even if I add these three to my list I still have one slot available. Who to put? I really have no idea. It's as if I'm asking myself "who would steal less from the country's budget?"
Here's the official list of the senatorial candidates:
1 ANGARA, Edgardo J. Ed LABAN
2 AQUINO, Benigno Simeon III C.* Noynoy Liberal Party
3 ARROYO, Joker P. Joker Kabalikat ng Malayang Pilipino
4 BAUTISTA, Martin D. Dr. B Ang Kapatiran
5 CANTAL, Felix C. Peck Philippine Green Republic Party
6 CAYETANO, Alan Peter S. ** Compa_ero Nacionalista Party
7 CAYETANO, Joselito P. *** Peter Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
8 CHAVEZ, Melchor G. Mel Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
9 COSETENG, Anna Dominique M. Nikki Independent
10 DEFENSOR, Michael T. Tol Lakas-CMD
11 ENCISO, Ruben C. Bobby Enciso Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
12 ESCUDERO, Francis Joseph G. Chiz Nationalist People’s Coalition
13 ESTRELLA, Antonio L. Tony Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
14 GOMEZ, Richard I. Goma Independent
15 HONASAN, Gregorio B. Gringo Independent
16 KIRAM, Jamalul D. Kiram PDSP
17 LACSON, Panfilo M. Ping UNO
18 LEGARDA, Loren B. Loren Nationalist People’s Coalition
19 LOZANO, Oliver O. Oli Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
20 MAGSAYSAY, Vicente P. Vic Lakas-CMD
21 MONTANO, Cesar M. Buboy Lakas-CMD
22 ORETA, Teresa Tao A. Tessie Nationalist People’s Coalition
23 ORPILLA, Eduardo F. Ed Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
24 OSMENA, John Henry R. Sonny UNO
25 PANGILINAN, Francis N. * Kiko Liberal Party
26 PAREDES, Zosimo Jesus II M. Jess Paredes Ang Kapatiran
27 PICHAY, Prospero Jr. A. Butch Lakas-CMD
28 PIMENTEL, Aquilino L. Koko PDP-Laban
29 RECTO, Ralph G. Korecto Lakas-CMD
30 ROCO, Sonia M. Inang Guro Aksyon Demokratiko
31 SINGSON, Luis C. Chavit Lakas-CMD
32 SISON, Adrian O. Dado Ang Kapatiran
33 SOTTO, Vicente III C. Tito Nationalist People’s Coaltion
34 TRILLANES, Antonio IV F. Magdalo UNO
35 VILLAR, Manuel Jr., B. Manny Nacionalista Party
36 WOOD, Victor N. Vic Kilusang Bagong Lipunan
37 ZUBIRI, Juan Miguel F. Migz Lakas-CMD
Those working under some of this people are more qualified to work in the senate than they are. Being a senator is one of the top positions in the country. Choosing who to place there is hard considering the fact that only a handful are promising enough.
They spend millions on campaign materials, what do they get in return?
Friday, May 11, 2007
What's in a Name?
Romina Angela.
How unique my name sounded to me. Especially because it is he reason why Alex and I met. Long story.
"Romina Angela" was so special, I even got mad when my mom told me that she had a patient with the same name that I had. To make it worse, the parents were even proud that they named their daughter after me! Even my nick name was not left untouched! Grr!
Had I not been held back, I would have given money to the parents just so their newborn baby be supplied with a new name. I mean, come on! Is there really a shortage of names that you have to deliberately copy mine? My parents exhausted a hell lot of brain cells just to come up with a "unique" name then you have the guts to name your child after me? Put some effort into naming your kid! Imagine the pressure your child has to go through because she bears the same name as mine.
Have mercy on the kid. Change her name while she's still not in grade school or better yet, migrate to another province just so the chances of having the child enroll in the same school(s) I went to will be minimized.
It's not easy being Romina Angela especially in a town as small as Pinamalayan. You have to live up to the expectations of the people around you. As I have previously stated, I am no Hollywood superstar but it's almost the same. That name is mine and copying it does not flatter me at all.
NEVER ever copy somebody else's name especially if you and that person are within the same town or in my case, two blocks away. What will you tell your child if he/she asks the etymology of his/her name?
To everyone else out their who's planning on their children's names, be more creative. There are 26 letters in the alphabet and a lot more combinations you could make with those.
How unique my name sounded to me. Especially because it is he reason why Alex and I met. Long story.
"Romina Angela" was so special, I even got mad when my mom told me that she had a patient with the same name that I had. To make it worse, the parents were even proud that they named their daughter after me! Even my nick name was not left untouched! Grr!
Had I not been held back, I would have given money to the parents just so their newborn baby be supplied with a new name. I mean, come on! Is there really a shortage of names that you have to deliberately copy mine? My parents exhausted a hell lot of brain cells just to come up with a "unique" name then you have the guts to name your child after me? Put some effort into naming your kid! Imagine the pressure your child has to go through because she bears the same name as mine.
Have mercy on the kid. Change her name while she's still not in grade school or better yet, migrate to another province just so the chances of having the child enroll in the same school(s) I went to will be minimized.
It's not easy being Romina Angela especially in a town as small as Pinamalayan. You have to live up to the expectations of the people around you. As I have previously stated, I am no Hollywood superstar but it's almost the same. That name is mine and copying it does not flatter me at all.
NEVER ever copy somebody else's name especially if you and that person are within the same town or in my case, two blocks away. What will you tell your child if he/she asks the etymology of his/her name?
To everyone else out their who's planning on their children's names, be more creative. There are 26 letters in the alphabet and a lot more combinations you could make with those.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Lucky
Lucky
Britney Spears
Early morning
She wakes up with a
Knock, knock, knock on the door
It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for
Isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl
She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night
Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning, and she keeps on winning
But tell me what happens when it stops?
They go…
"Isn't she lovely, this Hollywood girl?"
And they say…
She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night
Isn't she lucky, this Hollywood girl?
She is so lucky, but why does she cry?
If there's nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?
She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night
_____________________________________________________
I'm no Hollywood superstar but the story's still the same.
Britney Spears
Early morning
She wakes up with a
Knock, knock, knock on the door
It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for
Isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl
She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night
Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning, and she keeps on winning
But tell me what happens when it stops?
They go…
"Isn't she lovely, this Hollywood girl?"
And they say…
She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night
Isn't she lucky, this Hollywood girl?
She is so lucky, but why does she cry?
If there's nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?
She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night
_____________________________________________________
I'm no Hollywood superstar but the story's still the same.
Bruising
I bruise easily.
Well, it wasn't really a big deal because I bruise every month before I have my period. That was before I bruised two weeks after my period. I have a three inch long bruise on my left leg and several more on my thighs and knees.
I had my CBC (complete blood count) done today only to find out that my white blood cells and red blood cells are lower than normal in count. Not only that, the viscosity of my blood was also low.
Have I made it sound toxic already? That's the effect I was hoping for.. Haha! It's really not that serious. Not what a few vitamins and ferrous intakes wouldn't fix. I just wanted to make it sound worse than it is, see who'd care..
Oh no! My histrionic pangs are striking again! Tsk tsk tsk.. Pansinin nyo ko.. Hahaha! I'm really kinda out of my mind these days... I laugh a lot, not by myself though but at myself. :D
Seriously? I was hoping the CBC would be worse than what it really was. Maybe I have some sort of Münchhausen's syndrome, i dunno..
"Its never always the tears that measure the pain, sometimes its the smile we fake.."
*depression, frustration, anger, silence*
Well, it wasn't really a big deal because I bruise every month before I have my period. That was before I bruised two weeks after my period. I have a three inch long bruise on my left leg and several more on my thighs and knees.
I had my CBC (complete blood count) done today only to find out that my white blood cells and red blood cells are lower than normal in count. Not only that, the viscosity of my blood was also low.
Have I made it sound toxic already? That's the effect I was hoping for.. Haha! It's really not that serious. Not what a few vitamins and ferrous intakes wouldn't fix. I just wanted to make it sound worse than it is, see who'd care..
Oh no! My histrionic pangs are striking again! Tsk tsk tsk.. Pansinin nyo ko.. Hahaha! I'm really kinda out of my mind these days... I laugh a lot, not by myself though but at myself. :D
Seriously? I was hoping the CBC would be worse than what it really was. Maybe I have some sort of Münchhausen's syndrome, i dunno..
"Its never always the tears that measure the pain, sometimes its the smile we fake.."
*depression, frustration, anger, silence*
Friday, May 04, 2007
Torn
Torn
Natalie Imburlgia
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn
So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn.
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn
___________________________________________
Natalie Imburlgia
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn
So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn.
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn
___________________________________________
Try looking for the mime version of this song in either YouTube or Spikedhumor. Sorry can't give you the link. I'm too lazy to look for it right now.. haha! I'm once again super hyper and I don't know why or I just don't want to write why, I just need to pour my hyper-ness into something like writing an ultra long sentence with very little sense at all. Whew!
It's our 32nd month tomorrow. Just stating. Nothing really special planned for the day. Unless he does something really special for tomorrow which I don't know what and am not counting on.. Hahaha! I'm enjoying this long sentences for it shows the level of hyper-ness I have in my system right now..
*pauses*
Gee.. I hope this is not some defense mechanism thingy..
Sheesh..
It's our 32nd month tomorrow. Just stating. Nothing really special planned for the day. Unless he does something really special for tomorrow which I don't know what and am not counting on.. Hahaha! I'm enjoying this long sentences for it shows the level of hyper-ness I have in my system right now..
*pauses*
Gee.. I hope this is not some defense mechanism thingy..
Sheesh..
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Tiring
My head hurts, my chest feels worse.
Why do we have to quarrel every single time we get in touch? Why do you always have to use that tone of voice on me when we speak, which leads me to interpret your SMS as having the same tone. How can you expect me to warm up to you when I have to raise my defenses just so I won't be blamed (again)? Yeah, maybe I am too sensitive, too bratty, too whatever. I don't know. I seem to not understand your lingo anymore and it seems you cannot decipher mine either. Or maybe, just maybe, over the past three years we've changed a lot without even noticing it.
Stop being blind and see the fact that I am not the only one to blame for every outburst I have. Check how you speak, be conscious of the words you use, see what non verbal cues you produce. You must know by now what stuff lead me react negatively.
Do not expect me to apologize right away. I am a very proud person and accepting that I am wrong takes time, lots of it. If you get tired of waiting, don't force me to say it lest you be met with an insencere one and you know what happens next.
We've been together for almost three years now. I have changed and so have you. I don't know what the point of this last paragraph is. So there.
Why do we have to quarrel every single time we get in touch? Why do you always have to use that tone of voice on me when we speak, which leads me to interpret your SMS as having the same tone. How can you expect me to warm up to you when I have to raise my defenses just so I won't be blamed (again)? Yeah, maybe I am too sensitive, too bratty, too whatever. I don't know. I seem to not understand your lingo anymore and it seems you cannot decipher mine either. Or maybe, just maybe, over the past three years we've changed a lot without even noticing it.
Stop being blind and see the fact that I am not the only one to blame for every outburst I have. Check how you speak, be conscious of the words you use, see what non verbal cues you produce. You must know by now what stuff lead me react negatively.
Do not expect me to apologize right away. I am a very proud person and accepting that I am wrong takes time, lots of it. If you get tired of waiting, don't force me to say it lest you be met with an insencere one and you know what happens next.
We've been together for almost three years now. I have changed and so have you. I don't know what the point of this last paragraph is. So there.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
History Maker er.. Untamed
What on earth happened to your blog Anniefair?! I was caught off guard! I was expecting a dark facade and then a very white template hits my eyes. You can just imagine my moment of unbelief (and light blindness) when I clicked your link. To top that off, you don't have a tagboard or comment area where I can place this whole thingamajig so I had to make a whole entry just to blurt out how shocking the new look of your blog was. Whew! That was a long sentence.
Anyway, read your latest entry and it seems to be a rebut to my entry. Haha! At least I know you read my stuff.
First of all, why on earth do you lack self confidence when there you are reaping 1.0s as well? That's kind of an insult to someone like me who barely makes to the CS or more so the US list. Tsk tsk.. Quoting from Tickle Me Emo "you're not the only one with issues you know!" Hehe.. just kidding (or not).. hahaha..
Secondly, kindly place a comment area on you new blog so next time I don't have to make an entry just to comment on how bright your chosen template was.
Wahaha! I'm being praning today! Well, why not? It's my birthday. I have all the right to be one.
Something went wrong with my last entry. The system won't allow me to have spaces for every paragraph so bear with it. It's kinda irritating though.
Blah blah blah.. Happy birthday to me!
Anyway, read your latest entry and it seems to be a rebut to my entry. Haha! At least I know you read my stuff.
First of all, why on earth do you lack self confidence when there you are reaping 1.0s as well? That's kind of an insult to someone like me who barely makes to the CS or more so the US list. Tsk tsk.. Quoting from Tickle Me Emo "you're not the only one with issues you know!" Hehe.. just kidding (or not).. hahaha..
Secondly, kindly place a comment area on you new blog so next time I don't have to make an entry just to comment on how bright your chosen template was.
Wahaha! I'm being praning today! Well, why not? It's my birthday. I have all the right to be one.
Something went wrong with my last entry. The system won't allow me to have spaces for every paragraph so bear with it. It's kinda irritating though.
Blah blah blah.. Happy birthday to me!
Before 20
"Jelai has a birthday, we're so glad.
Let us see how many she has had.
As we count the candles we are told:
one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten,
eleven,twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen!
Jelai is nineteen years old."
It's my last year as a teen-ager and for the first time I felt the want to stop time so that I will not grow older. What bothers me is not the fact that I have turned nineteen but the matter that in a years time, I will no longer be a teen-ager. It somehow overwhelms me with the feeling of much more added responsibilities and the force to mature - to "act my age".
While other people are thinking about going to graduate school, not getting a job right after graduation, I somehow feel the need to get a job as soon (or in at most three months) after I graduate. I feel the need to earn and save just to satisfy my needs (and some wants) without being a burden to my parents anymore. Guilt strikes me whenever my mom complains that we don't have enough money for this and that. I feel as if I need to earn just so she can take me off the Expenses List.
Ah money! If only I have to think only about myself, that would indeed be easier.
Six people have already greeted at the stroke of 12 today. I'm expecting more greetings tomorrow.
To everyone else who haven't sent their greetings yet, you can convert every message to hundred peso bills, that would really be of help. :D But since most of us are on vacation mode, I know we can barely scratch a peso from our pockets. With this matter at hand, I half-heartedly thank you for your greetings.
Kidding (or not).. :D
Anyway, Spiderman 3's first showing date is today. To everyone planning to watch it on IMAX, don't even think it's possible if you haven't had your reservations yet. It's booked til the sixth. So if you want to catch it on the first showing date, better settle with a regular cinema. Too bad, I'm in the province. Can't watch it on the first showing date, on the first showing time and be a everybody else's spoiler. That takes the fun away.
My hair's straight, I'm getting fat, I don't have a summer love (not that I'm looking for one but I want to get even with Alex's summer love last year *evil grin*), what's to entertain me this vacation?
Ah! I'm ranting too much nonsense! Probably caused by the lack of sleep I have incurred this past week I spent in Manila.
Got to have my beauty rest for later's celebration (if ever there's gonna be one).
Nighty night.. Happy birthday to me!
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